Ana’s Song (Open Fire) by Silverchair
Please die, Ana
For as long as you’re here, we’re not
You make the sound of laughter
And sharpened nail seem softer
And I need you now, somehow
And I need you now, somehow
Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you
Imagine pageant
In my head
The flesh seem sticker
Sandpaper tears corrode the film
And I need you now, somehow
And I need you now, somehow
Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you
And you’re my obsession
I love to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an Anorexia life
Open fire
On my needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire
On my knees desires
What I need from you
He is a guy who was suffering from anorexia. He thinks that his life is always controlled by others. When he was young, he was controlled by his parents. He was not able to make his own decision, he can’t do whatever he wanna to do when he was a boy. When he grew up, when he went to school, he was controlled by his teachers. He was bounded by rules and regulations. When he finally leaved school and enter working field, he was once again controlled by his boss. The only thing that he can control is the thing he ate. He can decide what he want to eat and the amount of food he want to eat. So he decide not to eat anything. He likes to enjoy the feeling of starving. This feeling makes him feel alive. This feeling let him know that he can at least control something in his life. Due to this action, sooner he make a good friend with “Ana” which is anorexia. He was so obsess with aneroxia and he didn’t realize how thin he became. He didn’t realize how much flesh is left in his body. Sooner anorexia had eaten him up. Eventually he realize the harm that anorexia brought to his life. Deep in his heart, he knew that anorexia could kill him. But he just can’t fight his desire to control his life. He can’t fight his obsession to anorexia. He enjoy the pain and the illness that anorexia brought to his life. But rational the lay deep inside his heart tells him to fight, to fight for himself. As long as he is still alive everything is possible. As long as he is alive he can do anything he want to do. He can take control of his own life and his future when he is strong enough. So he fight and he won. Now he knows that courage is all he needs.
